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BatDan
Hey guys. Sorry I have been away so long.
I have had a 9 months full of difficulty and change, including me.
Its been a hard few months. Financially especially. But I have done a lot of growing. And some times in weird ways!
I had been diagnosed with Depression, and I have spent most of this year fighting hard to get out of it, And for the most part the black dog has turned from a Dire wolf to a small poodle, but my knuckles are bloody, I had to fight without meds.
But the result being I'm stronger now than I have ever been. But, I have also come to terms with my subbie nature.
I have always thought I was a switch, but mainly Dom with both genders. As Men, society teaches us that men should be strong and Domily (f*ck you spell check, that's a word). But whilst I'm 95% Dom with men, I'm 99.999999% sub with women. I have played and had guidance from a Pro Domme I know, experimented heavily with chastity devices and love cuckold porn. Tho in real life I doubt I could do that as a life style, I could do it as play. I am a genderfluid person and need intimacy and the need to feel loved AND desired.
I even had a relationship with a Domme I met and pulled at a munch, our demons played perfectly and she seemed to accept me, my genderfluid, cock lock love subbie self. and I had intimacy for the 1st time since my separation a year ago..... but that ended after a fortnight.
So I sit here on my sofa, work shifts preventing going out to munches and events, wanting intimacy, Ds and such. If I cant get out, I can socialise here!!!!!
I have had a 9 months full of difficulty and change, including me.
Its been a hard few months. Financially especially. But I have done a lot of growing. And some times in weird ways!
I had been diagnosed with Depression, and I have spent most of this year fighting hard to get out of it, And for the most part the black dog has turned from a Dire wolf to a small poodle, but my knuckles are bloody, I had to fight without meds.
But the result being I'm stronger now than I have ever been. But, I have also come to terms with my subbie nature.
I have always thought I was a switch, but mainly Dom with both genders. As Men, society teaches us that men should be strong and Domily (f*ck you spell check, that's a word). But whilst I'm 95% Dom with men, I'm 99.999999% sub with women. I have played and had guidance from a Pro Domme I know, experimented heavily with chastity devices and love cuckold porn. Tho in real life I doubt I could do that as a life style, I could do it as play. I am a genderfluid person and need intimacy and the need to feel loved AND desired.
I even had a relationship with a Domme I met and pulled at a munch, our demons played perfectly and she seemed to accept me, my genderfluid, cock lock love subbie self. and I had intimacy for the 1st time since my separation a year ago..... but that ended after a fortnight.
So I sit here on my sofa, work shifts preventing going out to munches and events, wanting intimacy, Ds and such. If I cant get out, I can socialise here!!!!!
You're among friends 
