That's very hard for a bloke to admit and obviously very personal for you. Look on the bright side, that chain ignored events led you to where you are today.Mr Brum here
My first marriage lasted 14 yrs and during that time I was a victim of domestic violence. Finally found the courage to leave after my 7yr daughter at the time stepped in between us one night and said stop hitting daddy. Took two years of counselling to get over it.
B x