Ok so here goes ... 1st this isn’t for sympathy, fishing for compliments, hoping for a shag ...
Basically I’ve been accused of ignoring someone because of their size , now has nothing to do with size more their attitude towards me ,I don’t do this for grief ,if this isn’t fun then there’s no point to be here ... we all interpret things differently and I may be wrong ...
So size , ever since I was born ( yes before England last won the World Cup
) I have been over weight “Fat “ no other word for it , I was put on diets which never seemed to work , all my life I was the “Fat Kid “ and endured all that came with it ...
As you grow up obviously you notice girls and certain things happening , being the Fat kid that no ones interested in , no one want to be seen with you eventually after knock back after knock back ... as with most things I buried my head in the sand ,telling myself I don’t need it ...I just accepted I was Fat and undesirable and no one was interested... because of my size ...
I completely understand how it is to be made to feel unsexy or ugly ... had that all my life , never had any woman say they love me or want to be with me , I won’t ever have anyone call me dad or granddad , won’t grow old with anyone ,this has nothing to do with swinging but is a direct result of how I feel about my size this is a constant thing that I think about regularly .. not that I want or am looking for anything like that ..
and that’s not what Swinging is about ...
So the whole size issue is quite close to home ... there’s been lots of vailed digs which do seem directed at me , I may be wrong , interpretation again ....
do I need to tone it down, do I offend people that much .... The only size that is important to me is mine ..